Strange week

21 Nov 2008 10:34

My first ever blog so it will be a bit random.

I have had the strangest of weeks. You know wen you think you know everything in your life is as it should be (or as near as damn it anyway) then bang, you find something out that makes you think a lot. This happened to me earlier this week on my night shift. Talking shit through as usual with an old friend through MSN, she goes and tells me something that, i have to be totally honest, shocked me slightly. Maybe shock is the wrong word, but it is the only one that maybe best fits the way i felt. She made a revelation to me that maybe confirmed a few things that i already suspected, but still hearing it was like "Whoooah!".

As the realisation settled in, i realised that it is not my place to judge her. I have known her for over 2 years now through the internet, and although we have never met in person, there is a strong friendship bond that is as important to me as it is to her. As we talked right through the night (as we often do as she rarely bloody sleeps, keeps me from doing my work which is such a shame!), she opened up to me and told me what all she was going through. While it is a hard time for her, it also was good to talk openly to someone about everything, someone who will not judge her as really, i mean, nothing has changed between us.

From what i have learned it has made me realise how i have changed over the years. 10 years ago if i had been told what i had i may well have said "go fuck yourself" and not batted an eyelid to someone else's feelings. But i have changed, both through work and family life, to the person that i am today. Not completely i hasten to add as there are still things that annoy the shit out of me and i react to them, but there area people who i would have avoided like the plague in the past that i would be (and indeed am) more accepting of today.

When she reads this i hope that she understands the message that i am putting across. Friendship is friendship, it is bloody hard to find, and even harder to keep. Just because you learn something about somebody that you wern't expecting, this should not detract from the reason that you became friends in the first place. Indeed, some revelations can make you think more of a person rather than less, especially when you realise just how much they are going through and how they are changing to adapt to their situation. Indeed, such is our friendship that as she goes through the process of change from who she is to what she will become, i will support her all the way, offering my counsel friendship and ear to help her through.

I think to sun it all up, it doesn't matter who you are on the outside, inside is where your soul is, that is what is important and as you bring that to front it should be respected. Friendships can be lost too easily over trivial matters, you never know when you will need your friends if you go through a rough time yourself.

to my friend forever.

User comments

• by onya @ 10 Dec 2008 7:53

  You sound like one hell of a good friend. To be honest...I'm kinda fond of the old gal myself. ;) Don't tell her I said 'old'..she'll rip my bloody head off..lol.
  
  Steve.

• by ktulu14 @ 11 Dec 2008 15:40

  Known her for about 2 yrs thru here and a couple of other places, i have her to blame for my addiction to *nix and hatred of M$ LOL. You and her sound like a good match, hope it works the way it should :)

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