camp and stress

22 Jun 2007 16:19

camp was not as bad as i thought, i got alittle homesick on the ride, just cause i havnt been that far away withhout my parents. its a mental thing i guese.
a summer camp is one thing, but a CHRISTIAN camp can be hard, they give you work to do, 3 hour long sessions in the morning, 2 hours at night. then you got to talk with your small group and discuss your feelings.
at first i was like, ok fine i cant do this. boy.. you end up letting stuff otut hat youve been keepign to yourself for a while, then you cry and feel broken down.
i kept to myself and just read my books. its hard to connect with people, ive always had trouble wiht it. then i went through this emotion of feeling ugly the first few days, so i stopped eating and got so tired, i tried skipping lunch to get extra sleep. even though i was in the sun everyday my face was kidna pale. i felt so horrible every morning, falling asleep during the session and stressing just to walk.

finaly i broke down and started confessing some stuff to my small group leader. sounds childish but it was getting so bad i had to say something, after i did , i felt better like i could see things clearer, walkign didnt hurt as much and i slept better.

i feel alittle emotional, probably because lately ive been ignoring them to the point where i feel nothing.
its like all my senses have been turned back on.
i kinda like it.
im glad i went to camp and finally said something.

and being wihtout my ipod was probably good if i had it, i woudl have done nothign but listen to it all day.
the beach was nice in florida, though there was tons of sea weed, so much it got stuck on my skin, nasty and slimey.
sunshine felt good but later in the day we got lots of rain and some lightening, i desired to run in the rain so bad but we had to stay inside for safety.

i bought a christian book about girls with isues about beauty, im almost half way through it.

one week with a bunch of cristian and listening abotu god seems change everything!

i want to cry, its overwelhming.

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