Choices & Decisions

(13 Oct 2006 1:30)

These 2 words are the 2 that anybody hates to ponder. and also hate to be incharge of if it is a life changing one. I have been pondering moving here to my dads place for the past few months i have found it very difficult to make the change. Mayb i getting to old and dont like change but that sounds like something my dad would say. I think anyone can change if they put their mind to it and if they wish to makes that change. If they do not want to it will not happen. I was really thinking about movin here but i have been observing dads place for the past week and i have come to the conclusion that i can not fit in to hes organised or disorganised kisos depending on how u look at it.

Realisticlly i can not see myself continuing to go to university here and then come home to a place that there is 4 kids all under the age of 10. I have worked with kids for the past 5 years and one thing i am greatful for is that i can give them back at the end of the day :) Having four kids wanting your attention at the same time it is a mad house. Having lasie fair parents is not a good thing either well here anyway because they dont deal with issues untill the shit hits the fan as they say.

I told my dad of my choice today and let just say he was not happy jan :( neither was i cause i was brutally honest. I feel i dont have to fall in the same hole that he is in because he think it is best for me. I just wish parents would not try to live through there kids and im not even that anymore im 25 now.

Now only if i can see if he buys me a ticket next week to fly out. I have many options but i feel that the infostructure that gold coast has got is not good enough for me and i would find it extremly difficult to get around.

I just hope and wish my father understands living with either parents has its downsides but i have to see which one i can live within and also be most constructive within.

Either way my life at the momment suxs :P u win some u loose some.

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